11 September 2006

I am so incredibly overwhelmed with school that I just can't quiet my mind. Its unlike anything else I have had to manage - the course load is fine but each course requires so much work AND then there's the "real" work of synthesizing, outlining, and just trying to master the rules that I just feel behind, even though I am not. We've had alot of people drop out - even people I thought were "smart."

There are so many people in my section that I just don't understand. I realize that these are the people that I will be with the rest of the year but some of them really f-ing bother me. I hear myself saying in my head when they raise their hands "put your hand down." Its mean. I know, its not the best attitude but what can I really say other than their questions are usually so specific to their problems that I just don't understand why they have to take up class time with it. Meh. Again, maybe I am just being mean and insensitive but today was a really f-ing long day and I still have so much to do. Plus it rained buckets and I wore flip flops like the idiot I am...thus my feet were cold and clammy all day.

Okay this is all just griping so i'll stop now.

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