03 June 2004

Oh yeah, for a blast from the past, check out the archives from 10/01-10/31...those were the days.

Especially that cut/paste letter from when Kill Hannah and I weren't arch nemesis's...

I love re reading the past and making those inevitable compare/contrasts...thats what happens when you spent four years studying poli. sci and english...

the" spellbound " entry
Date: 3 June 2004
Climate: Waiting for the solstice
Eating: --
Drinking: gatorade
Feeling: sick, again!
Listening to: Morning Edition from WBEZ and the sound of my nose, blowing.
Watching: --
Reading: that little bill, about the draft, that no one seems to know about (thanks to Mike Stone for the heads up)

Last night Eddie and I saw Spitalfield and the Jealous Sound at this hole of a venue in Detroit called The Shelter. I got hassled because I didn't use the railing which was rather shlacked (spelling?) with a combination of black paint, spit, gum and other germs that I frankly didn't want on my hand...we all know that I have the BEST immune system. Anyway, so the guy who's hassling me about the railing is wearing this ridiculous Chicago tshirt about natural disasters or something, and so I mention (moreso to get him to stop repeating, ad nauseum, "go back, use the railing") that I am from Chicago and he says "where" and I tell him where and then he delves into how I live in the "rich" parts and had like no cred.
Not only was that not very "punk rock" it puzzled me as to why he'd do that/say that...please, make me feel more unwelcome here, please.
Then he made some assinine comment about how I needed to get a bracelet to say I could drink (?) or get a "big black X" on my hand, which doesn't wash off easy which would be "annoying since I am a girl."
I wanted to say, "can it be a big, red, scarlet X? And can it be right on my forehead? Becasue if it can, I want one, please."
It was like English Lit night: Chaucer::Spitalfield, X::Scarlet Letter...anyway, I digress.

The show was great, minus the fact that the median age was about 16 and that this really, really, no really, bad Ben Folds/Rooney rip off band called The Format was there...and the kids actually were more into them than the Jealous Sound, who as we all know, I love to an alarming degree. Yeah, its emo but at least its good. I wanted to yell out Knapsack songs but I remembered how aggravated Craig used to get when someone would yell out "Logan's on the Run" at his old shows...and speaking of Craig, it was a trip to see Spitalfield playing, and with fans! All I see is them playing wiht Craig's band in the freaking Downers Grove basement. When I saw them nearly sell out The Metro last summer was odd enough, but transplanting them to Detroit makes it even more odd. I love them, but the whole night made me nostalgic for those two years I spent in that role...but nostalgia isn't always positive, and seeing Eddie chain smoking (ew) behind me was a reassuring push that things are just as they should be.
I danced and sang along like a fool with the bands and then we left and went back to the hotel aka my home through Nov. 2. We ate at Chili's (the ONLY place open past 10, and sadly, when I asked those charming Shelter staff people of any good vegetarian restaurants they looked at me crazily and mumbled something indiscretionable) and sat on the same side of the booth, and I picked at his fries while he at those damn ribs everyone sings about in those commericals. Thinking a scalding hot shower would help me recover from the show didn't do much: I think the entire night just added to the sickness.
So work today is like a flashback to when i was editor in college--sweatpants (love) hand me down sweatshirt from Mike Stone (definitely Elmhurst) flip flops and a hat (someone said "good luck" to me and I asked why...and he said "for your baseball team advertised on your hat" "Oh..thats actually a skateboarding company," I replied. This is the same man who thought my Joy Division tshirt had something to do with the movie/book The Joy Luck Club. Insane).

Cheney is going to be in Grand Rapids (Amway scary...) tomorrow speaking to Police Officers. Its just comedy around the ACT office right now, preparing for that. I love all the inter office emails about this visit. Then he's on to Chicago for a 1000.00/tix fundraiser dinner for that ass, Jack Ryan (did anyone else hear about how our man Obama was being stalked by a Ryan staffer who wouldn't stop videotaping/following him? Conservatives have no shame).

More planning on these media hits, planning the trip to San Fran...and trying to secure that damn table at Warped Tour, and yet, as if it never ends, more hiring for foot soldiers, and the never ending pursuit of hiring interns and of course, tracking just how many hidden bills and broken promises Bush the II has chalked up to adequately inform the electorate about, without getting sued by more conservatives.

02 June 2004

As far as work goes, its my responsibility to plan two press hits in Lansing and Grand Rapids, researching Donna Brazile (we're hosting some big book party for her come July) and doing more hiring.

Its just not that hard, but I feel like I am surrounded by people who think that it is. It keeps me busy but honestly, its not brain surgery...I got more information from Northwestern Law School. I am glad to see they highly encourage interviews. I am stellar at interviews, I really am...there's not a whole lot I toot my own horn about, but that is definitely one of them.

880 organizers are up here, and I met them for lunch today (or just iced tea. this ulcer makes spontaenous lunches a thing of the past)...it was good to see them, and they'll be here until Saturday. Everyone seemed well, but Ramsin and Tulane always make me smile, they're so quirky and so intelligent that its like they're uber smart cartoons that smoke, or something.

The "Sedaris" Entry
Date: 2 June
Climate: cold. rain. then, sun.
Eating: goldfish crackers
Drinking: more arnold palmers
Feeling: tired
Listening to: all things considered
Watching: the letters magically appear as I type.
Reading: Donna Brazile's bio.

Eddie being up in Dtown is the best thing ever to have happened to this state. Last night I got back to the hotel and he was laying on my bed, watching Anderson Cooper, and the feeling of falling into his arms and just lay there when I am accustomed to a cold, empty room is amazing.
David Sedaris was on the show, wearing a nice pink shirt...before the show broke to commercial, teasing us that "Writer and funny man David Sedaris, up next, talking about his new book" the song by Hot Hot Heat "Bandages" (HATE IT SO MUCH MAKES ME FEEL CRAZY) began to play, and Eddie got all excited .... and he says to me "He [Sedaris] told them to play that song...he said 'play that song that me and Eduardo like.' " I was like "oh, you two are friends?" and he claims they are old chums.
He's so strange.
Like me.

"President Bush has promised he's going to establish elections in Iraq, he's going to rebuild the infrastructure and he's going to create jobs. And he said if it works there, he'll try it here."
—David Letterman, May 26, 2004


found here

01 June 2004

pensive*

Eddie and I had great conversations driving up last night. So many. So long, so detailed...

One of which was discussing how love fades. Each of our experiences, and how strikingly different they are...maybe because I have loved before, and he hasn't. I don't know.

Today I re-read a bunch of emails from ex's that I had saved in an old yahoo account...from one ex in particular.

I got really sad, and that sadness is staying with me. I wish he and I weren't so bitter now. It never ever starts that way, you know? What he wrote then was real, I just don't know where that person went in the end.

But I can't let myself get consumed in trying to salvage what cannot be...and I have to embrace what I have, right now....because its better than anything I have ever felt.

The" Sinus " Entry
Date: 1 June 04
Climate: I guess this is what we call summer
Eating: digesting greasy fries Eddie and I ate en route to MI last night at about midnight...
Drinking: Gatorade
Feeling: sick
Listening to: Muzak on the line as I hold with the travel agency..and the automated voice "thanking me for holding."
Watching: --
Reading: receipts.

Its either allergies or a bizarre head cold but I am sick again.

I don't know what is wrong with me.

But I figure that its just allergies, so I'll just keep throwing back the medication...my, medicine head.

The 23rd was a blazing success, much due to my fantastic boyfriend...When I woke up the weather was crap but we went to Orange and I ate chai tea french toast (mmm) and we then went back to bed...then we went to his house for this like bbq where the cake Eddie made (from scratch!) was eaten after a very embarassing "happy birthday" song from his family and friends (most of which I had never met)...then, the Pinata. Now he had told me he had gotten me a dinosaur pinata a few weeks back, because I guessed actually, but never before had I seen such a sight. It had a little party hat on which went well with the party hats we were wearing, including little blowers that flew out like snakes tongues...(but eddie's dad claimed they were no good becasue they didn't make any noise. Awesome)...the dinosaur also had a long letter Eddie wrote, stating that when we get married, we're going to start a new tradition of breaking a pinata at the reception...can't wait to see the look on my mothers face. Hee.

That evening, we went to SushiSamba and, when seated, promptly looked at one another and immediately knew that we wanted to leave...we were seated cafeteria style (minus a tiny passage way that you could use to get out which inevitably shook the tables on either side).
So we just got up after being there for not five minutes and went to retrieve the car from the valets who looked confused.
Suddenly in like a flash of light, the head waiter and another man came up and asked us what was wrong and why we had left. We didn't want to cause a scene ("This table is crap! We're Leaving!") so we had left quietly, but evidently they saw us go out and came after us.

So we just told them that the table was too cramped and uncomfortable, but that we understood that it was a busy Saturday night so we'd just come back some other night.
But that wasnt' enough...they kept inviting us back in, promising us a better table, and the kicker was the owner who like ran after us and said "you two are a good looking couple, come back in here."
Ha. It was comedy.
We did get a better table and ate and ate and ate...it was good sushi and latin fare...mmm. The decor was very...stylized, all red and blues and lush fabrics. It was nice I guess but that place is a little overrated.

We were then off to Sugar, but the cover was half of what an average dessert was, which was still too high...plus, I hate places like that, and so does Eddie, surprisingly. Everyone is all mean and angry and beautiful...ick.

But the amazing thing was the amount of compliments I got on my dress. I literally have never experienced anything like that. Random women just told me how much they loved my dress, over and over. On the way to the Signature Lounge (I was pretty tanked by then and am surprised I was able to walk there), several women did that whole whispering but talking compliment thing, which I hate, but when slightly drunk, find amusing. The dress was this like light but bright blue gauzy halter thing that was all flowing...but short...very sex and the city.

Minus me freaking out at the cocktail waitress at the Signature Lounge ("What exactly is a white and dark chocolate mousse-cake?" She like smirks and says "Its self explanatory" I freaked out, and because of the alcohol level, was perhaps a little rude but who SAYS that? No, its NOT self explanatory which is why I asked, thank you. Is it like a bundt cake? Is the mousse on top? Is it white cake with chocolate mousse? What, what?!) the dessert was alright--too rich for me (but perfect for Eddie...I did have a Mojito Martini which polished me off for the night)...anyway, so we took a cab back to the car (I think I wanted to have sex in it, I really do, but then according to Eddie I fell asleep which he found quite amusing)...it was a great birthday. Ewpecially since we took pictures of all of our meals (for his site)...

The day after my birthday was spent recovering from the birthday (hung over)= Panera soup and bread and a movie in Oak Park (Day after tomorrow, Jake Gylenhaal is so cute)...and more sleeping. Oh, we ate dinner at the Pick me Up. Man have I outgrown that place...

We moved all day yesterday, and in total, I stood in que for four hours at two uhaul/self storage places. I was also in a supremely bitchy mood (I always get that way when I move, no doubt, always...and Eddie finds it amusing. I am like upset and griping and he just laughs. I think this is love, when your worst mood is still comedy to your significant other. He says he loves to see me get wound up. Its just shocking that I found someone who can tolerate my moods...)
At around 4pm we were done getting the van, driving the van, packing the apartment, packing the van, packing the storage room, and driving back to my now old apartment. Eddie ran home to get a few things before we headed out (the other part of my gift was him spending a week with me up in Dtown...) and I met Lindsay for "drinks" (aka coffee and smoothie) for about an hour. She got a new car! Its beige and clean and very practical but with a definite hint of LJ. It suits her...we chatted about how we love our "routines" and she looks very happy and settled. It was nice to see her--she made me this great card taht I am hanging up in my office next to the one she sent me with the photo of the baby calf.

Eddie and I left for Michigan around 9 and got in around 2. With that time difference, its just awful. We did fool around Kalamazoo for 30 minutes seeking out downright awful fast food but I had a craving...anyway. We got in and he unpacked the entire car (amazing) while I showered and unpacked. I forgot to set my cell phone to Eastern Time so I woke up an hour late today, and rushed in at around 1015.
My director...didn't care. As usual.

Now I am here, working, tons to do...but theres something comforting knowing that he's only ten minutes away from me.

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