09 July 2004

My new poll question is: What do you do when you get frustrated at work?

Carl: sometimes i get frustrated at work, close my door and just listen to music or on saturdays i nap.

Julie: i get really flushed and then usually walk away from my desk.

More responses forthcoming...

The" White Boy " Entry
Date: July 9
Climate: spring moreso than summer
Eating: --
Drinking: more vitamin water
Feeling: annoyed
Listening to: hum of the fax machine and dsl hook up
Watching: nightline
Reading: information on the lifting of steel tariffs

I have gotten hollered at alot in my lifetime...and generally we all know how i respond to that.
Today, though, at 930am, I was walking into work when a Ford focus drove by me and began to holler something lewd which I wont repeat here. He also made this face that made my stomach churn.
He was a 20something white male.
Like they all are here.
Now previously, I have had experience with cat calling and its mainly been from latin or black men but here, I find they are much more...respectful, for lack of a better word.
So I got pissed and flicked him off and he laughed.

...too early in the morning for those antics.
sometimes I loathe being a girl.

08 July 2004

The" still taking on the world " Entry
Date: 8July2004
Climate: COLD and Drizzle
Eating: pistachios
Drinking: water
Feeling: yesterday was like today
Listening to: fresh air just finished
Watching: --
Reading: more economist
If people wonder why I am reading the Economist so much (sorta too conservative for me) its be/c I got this trial subsciption. I see now that trial is good for me, since the conservative angle makes me a little weak, but the global coverage is so comprehensive and succinct...we'll see if I renew.
Anyway. So its Thursday already. I have realized that I will like this job much more if I just assume the absolute bare bones minimum of happiness. So these past couple days have been alright. It keeps me busy, and as I get more say in the research end (which I love) and even some writing, work is turning out to get better and better. I must assure myself that this is primarily due to my attitude change.
Been considering finding a therapist to discuss all this adoption + image issues that I have been grappling with as of late. From some conversations, some is due to standard societal crap, but some is in part to some people in my past's comments in regards to my race.
This is going to be difficult as I have never particularly enjoyed to talk about either issue outside of an academic and logical sense -- self interpretation is always harder. Especially when its with someone you don't know. It makes me miss Tamar. I wonder what she'd say if she knew that Eddie and I have agreed to name our first son Levinson.
Interesting.

07 July 2004

The" toss and turn " Entry
Date: July 7
Climate: its gray and humid and downright depressing
Eating: --
Drinking: balance vitamin water and i just poured a cup of coffee. I am curious as to how this will sit. Maybe if I begin to throw up I can go home.
Feeling: only two more days until Eddie comes*
Listening to: ACT media conference call (really just everyone breathing as we wait)
Watching: Sex and the City on TBS ("very funny")
Reading: newest Economist (trying to. I can't focus on anything)

I cannot sleep. These last two nights have been absolutely horrible. I really think its because I am getting used to sleeping next to Eddie--even when we slept in that massive huge bed at the hotel last weekend, I found myself waking up on his side, usually with our arms somewhat around one another. These past two nights, I haven't been able to sleep at all--I toss and turn and prowl around and sleep drastically later seeing as I am at work until 7 or 730pm every day...I don't know.

I am getting really angry at Ralph Nader and how lame his plight has become--he is just a subsidary of the right wing, who's "we need the democracy to have a third party" crap is getting really really fucking old.

So clearly not getting enough sleep is making me so happy.

06 July 2004

The" story of us " Entry
Date: 7/6.04
Climate: cooler by the lake
Eating: rice crispy square from starbucks. thought it would taste like playdough and was pleasantly surprised.
Drinking: water
Feeling: tired
Listening to: twilight singers
Watching: cnn
Reading: media advisories

The fourth was so so great. I just love the excitement about the fireworks and the crazy fair food. From the Taste to the Lakefront, Eddie and I hit it all...even got sick off of churros at Navy Pier as we stood on top by the Ferris Wheel until the fireworks went off. Fearing the crowds and the small children and cantankerous parents, we departed for solid ground once the first sparkler hit the air. It was great fun--we walked from printers row to the edge of old town, twice. When we got back to the hotel, I made him rub my legs until I fell asleep...the tricky thing with flip flops is that when you wear them for that long, you may as well be barefoot.
The only thing i'd have done differently would be to leave smelling less like the city--we were pretty ripe when we got home. It was nasty.
The shower was nice though...the weekend was great, although a little tumultous at times...its torture driving away from him and our 'story' is always being perfected, especially on what we're going to tell the scrappers, or as I like to call them, the minions, once we have them.... but at least I have work to keep me busy...Bush is here tomorrow and i got a chance to draft my first press related item today. Its below, as well as a great picture of the two johns.

ps) I have told this to two people today: when a black fly lands on you, it actually lays eggs which are larvae. The larvae buries into your skin and creates maggots which will surface if you press on the hole the larvae makes when it burys itself in you. I know this because two just fell out of my arm.

....

just kidding.
I saw it on National Geographic and it was certainly one of the ugliest sights i had ever seen. THey showed how they come out of cows. I am even more militant about washing myself and my produce now. Ew. Larvae. Seeing that maggot crawl out of the cow just made me feel even better for being a vegetarian. To think you could eat a cow that was maggot infested:) yum.

wrote myself:)

President Bush will be in Michigan tomorrow to raise more money and to meet with his conservative nominee’s for the 6th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals, in response to the vacancies on the court, and the conflict surrounding the blocked nominees from taking ascent out of partisan differences. While the crisis with the chronically understaffed 6th Circuit Court is noteworthy, Michigan’s economical climate has more immediate needs that the President should address during this stop, but isn’t.

To date, the judicial vacancy rate is once again lower than the unemployment rate, prompting politicians like Senator Patrick Leahy (D-Vermont) to question the importance of a White House focus on judicial matters, when unemployment continues to soar. Last year, Senator Leahy stated in a Senate hearing that “the Republican myth of a ‘judicial crisis’ is punctured by the facts, which show the lowest judicial vacancy rate in 13 years-lower than the national jobless rate of 6 percent.”

Former Michigan Attorney General Frank Kelley is also questioning the supposed judicial vacancy crisis and believes Bush's visit could be better spent. “As Senator Patrick Leahy pointed out last year, this is the first time in a long time that the judicial vacancy rate is lower than the unemployment rate. With seats on the bench being filled, and job losses continuing, maybe what we should be talking about is well paying jobs for Michigan families.”

Michigan residents couldn’t agree more. If only the President saw it this way.

According to America Coming Together (ACT) Bush has presided over the loss of thousands of well-paying jobs and replaced them with low-paying work in the service sector and there is no better example of this disparity then in Michigan.

The Economic Policy Institute reports that Michigan's overall job loss since Bush took office is 200,200. Jobs are shifting from higher-paying industries such as manufacturing and information, to lower-paying industries such as retail and hospitality. In Michigan, the average pay in industries that are growing is $36,477, which is 26% less than the $49,397 average wage in industries that are shrinking. (Economic Policy Institute, January 21, 2004) Yet the President will not address this ongoing crisis tomorrow, despite the fact that this crisis began, swells, and worsens under his administration.

Michigan residents have yet to see any results from Bush’s promises to uplift the sinking state economy. There has been little to no effort on the part of the Bush Administration to comparably replace the multitude of jobs lost in Michigan. The few new jobs that Bush has created cannot sustain working families.

Tomorrow is a time when Bush can begin to follow through on the promise’s he’s espousing, as he campaigns for a second term, but he’ll more than likely choose to escape the conflicts and concerns of most Michigan residents, and take refuge in the homes of the American’s who he’s always given priority to, from day one: the rich and wealthy and employed.



Let the races begin!

I heard my boss talking about how that "just made my morning."

So photogenic, too*

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