Its one in the morning, why not?
I know I keep writing, well, almost like droning at this point, about my new lifestyle but I am still sort of shell shocked at it. I just don't understand why I am either a) so incredibly inept and slow or b) not adjusted to the slow progression of learning/fast innundation of materials hat is law school to me. I mean, I am sure there are some people who are all, "whatev, law school is soooo easy," but I am just not one of them. I just don't ever feel 100% secure in anything that I am learning, so I spend loads of time just re-reading...and re-reading. It takes me awhile to do anything involving the curriculum and it just makes me feel stupid, a feeling that I am not comfortable with.
So anyway. I tried to synthesize these cases tonight and now its like 1am and I have no idea if what I have is even remotely close to what synthesis is supposed to be. THIS is why they have study guides I suppose. I need to get something sooner or later that not necessarily templates something for me (be/c stenciling my briefs and other assignments, while artful, will not really help me do things like, oh, pass the bar and practice) so that I know what I am going after - right now it just seems like a recap of cases and their modifications of the initial rule, and I don't think thats right. But tomorrow I am going to work and then I have class straightaway so we'll see what happens. Its insane how people act in class. I see some people who actively make faces when someone is called on (its annoying and mean), or when some poor soul doesn't know the right answer within the like 2 seconds the professor gives us to answer it (so competitive). Its bad, I hate it. I don't hate my role in it be/c I have yet (yet - knock on wood) to get called on and be lost but it'll happen. I am sure of it. Its like a rite of passage in law school I think.
Despite all that, I really do like what I am learning - its just like learning a language without having the basic vocabulary down. You really can't build off anything be/c you still don't know what the terms that make up the sentences even mean. They can't really teach the vocab without the sentence be.c then it'd be without a context, and alot of times that context is what gives the word its meaning?...and on and on. Its just frustrating.
I also broke a candle all over my bathroom floor about 15 minutes ago. That was AWESOME. I don't even know how it happened - one minute it was in my hand, then it was like half on the shelf, and then SMASH on the ground. I really love picking up shards of glass, especially at 1am. Might as well go throw another up against the wall just for the sake of the satisfying smashing noise that resounds in the bathroom, be/c if i'm up, everyone should be up.
I know I keep writing, well, almost like droning at this point, about my new lifestyle but I am still sort of shell shocked at it. I just don't understand why I am either a) so incredibly inept and slow or b) not adjusted to the slow progression of learning/fast innundation of materials hat is law school to me. I mean, I am sure there are some people who are all, "whatev, law school is soooo easy," but I am just not one of them. I just don't ever feel 100% secure in anything that I am learning, so I spend loads of time just re-reading...and re-reading. It takes me awhile to do anything involving the curriculum and it just makes me feel stupid, a feeling that I am not comfortable with.
So anyway. I tried to synthesize these cases tonight and now its like 1am and I have no idea if what I have is even remotely close to what synthesis is supposed to be. THIS is why they have study guides I suppose. I need to get something sooner or later that not necessarily templates something for me (be/c stenciling my briefs and other assignments, while artful, will not really help me do things like, oh, pass the bar and practice) so that I know what I am going after - right now it just seems like a recap of cases and their modifications of the initial rule, and I don't think thats right. But tomorrow I am going to work and then I have class straightaway so we'll see what happens. Its insane how people act in class. I see some people who actively make faces when someone is called on (its annoying and mean), or when some poor soul doesn't know the right answer within the like 2 seconds the professor gives us to answer it (so competitive). Its bad, I hate it. I don't hate my role in it be/c I have yet (yet - knock on wood) to get called on and be lost but it'll happen. I am sure of it. Its like a rite of passage in law school I think.
Despite all that, I really do like what I am learning - its just like learning a language without having the basic vocabulary down. You really can't build off anything be/c you still don't know what the terms that make up the sentences even mean. They can't really teach the vocab without the sentence be.c then it'd be without a context, and alot of times that context is what gives the word its meaning?...and on and on. Its just frustrating.
I also broke a candle all over my bathroom floor about 15 minutes ago. That was AWESOME. I don't even know how it happened - one minute it was in my hand, then it was like half on the shelf, and then SMASH on the ground. I really love picking up shards of glass, especially at 1am. Might as well go throw another up against the wall just for the sake of the satisfying smashing noise that resounds in the bathroom, be/c if i'm up, everyone should be up.